In November 2011 I climbed aboard the gratitude train and posted a Facebook status each day in regards to what I was thankful for. I so enjoyed doing it that I decided to bring our family blog back with a little twist... to devote the year of 2012 to gratitude. This will be my platform with which to journal our thankfulness throughout the year along with just documenting the daily fun that is our family! Hope you'll join me for the journey!

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Thursday, April 2, 2009

Resting in His grip...

So today I got the call I've been dreading for 2 years... In February 2007 I had my first mammogram. I was 35 and it was time. Two days after I had it done, I got a call that I needed to come back in for some additional films/ultrasound. I went back in and was basically told that I had some irregular breast tissue on my right side that was concerning only because it was only on one side and not bilateral. The radiologist and my gynecologist decided they wanted to follow it with mammograms every 6 months. Basically, they told me that as long as there was no change in the tissue that there was no real concern. So for two years I've spent a week every 6 months in fear of what my next mammogram may show... Since that first mammogram in 2007 there has been no change... until Tuesday. I went Tuesday for another follow up mammogram and during the three hours, twelve mammogram films and two ultrasounds, I could tell that there was concern on the radiologist's face... He kept using the word benign but he still seemed more concerned than in the past. This abnormal tissue has not ever been visible on ultrasound until Tuesday. This change means that what was abnormal tissue has not solidified into some sort of mass. So today I got a call from my OB/Gyn and she is referring me to a breast surgeon for a ultrasound guided biopsy of a mass on my right breast. I have gone through every emotion today... fear, anger, sadness, joy (listening to 6 little boys playing with Miller in my backyard all afternoon)... and yet I keep coming back to one thing... the ever-present feeling of God's grip on my life. I am going this week-end with 6 girlfriends to a Beth Moore conference and it could not come at a better time. This will be a week-end of worship, prayer and fellowship with friends. I need that right now. I know that no matter what Tuesday brings that God is going to equip me with whatever I need to get through!

It's going to be OK!

I'm going to be OK!

So, tonight I am resting in the Lord's grip and finding peace/comfort in prayers that are being lifted up for me... I know God hears and I am thankful for the prayer warriors in my life! I will keep you posted after Tuesday.

Oh... and I must wish a very, very Happy Birthday to my BFF of 22 years Christa... I love you and hope you had a great, great day!!!

5 comments:

Ashley Beth said...

Charlotte - I am praying for you!!! It WILL be okay, and you WILL be fine! Have fun at Beth Moore - couldn't have come on a better weekend for you!

Ash said...

Charlotte- I read this and of course cried, not b/c I believe for one second that you are not ok-YOU WILL BE OK, but b/c even from Louisiana you continue to touch my heart! You faith is such an inspiration to me. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. By the way, it is rainy and dreary in KY today....a day that you would not miss :)

Maria said...

Sweet Charlotte,
I am praying for you, that the Lord would be your strength and your peace! One thing that seems very encouraging to me: even if this was something, they have been so on top of it that it would be caught very early!
Love you friend!
Maria

Anonymous said...

Charlotte,
You are going to be just fine...good for you for keeping so on top of your health. You have done everything just right. I know you have been blessed at Beth Moore, just hang on to Jesus, He will give you the peace you need! I will be talking to Him about you and I know He will meet all you needs.
Much love...please know you are being prayed for!
Love,
Heather

Anonymous said...

Charlotte,
I have just read this - will continue to pray for you and the family - What a fabulous attitude! You inspire me so much!
Thank you for your faith walk and sharing it with us.